Being generous with myself

I moved to a gorgeous new place on the ocean. I had debated the move for some time – you pay so much more for the ocean view. But finally I decided that the whole point of my leaving my job in NYC and starting the travels was to improve the quality of my life, and the ocean view is definitely yet another improvement. I admire my ability to talk myself into taking luxurious decisions! I remember buying a Valentino skirt once – I didn’t feel bad even for a split second. I really appreciate this quality, because it protects me from feeling any monetary guilt. In fact, I don’t think I ever feel any guilt at all. Is that good though? I mean, of course I feel bad sometimes for what I do or how I handle certain situations, but I never dwell on this and I certainly don’t take any guilt-based actions. But maybe it’s not healthy… Maybe we are supposed to feel guilty from time to time, creating an effective driving force for important life decisions.

Anyway, back to my new gorgeous apartment. It is interesting how things you surround yourself with – consciously or subconsciously – influence your mood and well-being in general. I was definitely happy in our house in town with Liang, but the little grievances like the constant traffic noise and the strange bi-polar behaving landlord and the disturbing ants infestation in Liang’s room certainly took a toll on me. Waking up to the beautiful ocean, falling asleep to the sound of waves, not having to hear the gas truck annoying announcements and chilling in the hammock under the palapa after sunset feels exhilarating now. And I’ve been here for a month already, so it’s not just the first euphoric impression. It seems that I really struck a great deal. And as if to drive this point home, I have had 0 headaches in the past month! Knock on wood.

Again and again, I get proof that taking generous decisions for your precious self (and I don’t refer only to monetary generosity) pays off big time.